Dear Seth,

I have something planned for Valentine's Day. I'm nervous, scared and my heart is tripping something crazy right now. Oh God, I think I'm about to puke. I have my hopes pinned on something that.. I just don't know. All my life I have been let down. This is just one more thing that I am expecting will happen. Though I have no solid religion, I pray that what I'm about to do comes true. 

p.s. I love you