Dear Seth,

It again has been a few days since I have written to you here. I'm trying to act like I'm okay but I'm not. I'm really sick. I have had a full days meal in the past week. Every time I do I usually get violently ill so I end up not eating at all. Later today I am going to push until I have a doctors appointment in the same day. I can't live like this anymore. I'm about to give up and I don't want to. My quality of life is nothing. NOTHING. Yesterday I wore a pair of pants that, unbeknownst to me, were too big and kept falling off as I walked. It was embarrassing. It's like this with all of my clothing now. You are one of the only things keeping me here and wanting to fight. Please talk to Kim she'll tell you what's going on. Give me something more to go on because I honestly am losing this battle. I need you so badly. If only to hear your voice for one second.... Please Seth I beg you.

p.s. I love you