Dear Seth,

I'm sorry that it's been so long since I have written to you here. Your site keeps me busy.... that and my mom. Thankfully she is doing so much better. It feels more normal now. Granted there are still things that are keeping her from being herself but I think that I, along with others, have done a damn amazing job in aiding her progression.

I can't believe it's February already! There is so much that I want and need to accomplish this month. I pray that I am able to do it all. Well what I have planned. ;)

So anyways last night was a bad night for me. Actually one of the worst I have ever had, enough to call an ambulance. And to be honest I am scared of what is going on with me. All I want to really know is why?

I have tried for so long. A part of me just wants to give up, at times. But then the image I have of you pops up in my mind and I can't. Also the words of comfort you have given me are beyond compare. It drives me to want to keep going on. In part, you are my savior.

p.s. I love you