Dear Seth,

These are the things that I’ll never get to say to you. There were times that I thought that you were the one that needed rescuing, turns out it was me that needed to save myself.  I was too green to realize, too naive.

So in saving myself I am letting you go. You will always be in every memory I have, from sunrise to sunset. From the leaves that crunch in the fall to the summer rainstorms, from the first snowfall of winter to the crickets sing in spring I will love you. To the miles that I travel down the lonely highway to the ones that would have lead me to you that is where pieces of my heart will always lay.

There is someone new, though I’ll never love him like you. Where you were my sunshine on a cloudy day he is becoming my rainbow in the middle of a thunderstorm. Meaning there just might be a chance to take one of those pieces of my heart, dust it off and giving it to him but keeping the key never to get hurt again. 

Please always smile knowing that you are my biggest inspiration and motivation in life and love. My life hasn’t been the same since meeting you.

But tonight* I am praying that this will be the last that I dream of you, my life is haunted enough, and I am so very tired.

p.s. I love you