Dear Seth,

Yeah I think tonight takes the cake. This is as much as I've ever drank before in my life, and that is saying a lot. Trying to forget you and that you ever existed is like saying naw it's ok I don't need to breathe today, tomorrow maybe.

If anyone truly reads this you'll know that I don't even have a clear picture of what he looks like. Yeah I have saw him before but........ it's sort of complicated. I didn't know for sure it was just the feeling that it was him, I knew. And I had that pleasure twice.

It was pure fucking torture to not to go up to you and give you hell.

Well this is I think as much as my brain can take at the moment without getting too weird.

Tha gaol agam ort.

p.s. I love you