Dear Seth,

I think that I'm going to have to accept the fact that I'm going to always be in love with you. I've tried everything to forget you and have failed. You have been my highest and also lowest points in life. You've had me jumping for joy and I have cried myself into oblivion. I hate that my heart refuses to get over you. All that these feelings do are turning me into a masochistict blob. And God how I want more of you no matter how much I'm starting to feel for him. I wish that I never was introduced to you. My heart and soul need to heal from all the damage done. I want to be done with loving you because there is a very special man that truly deserves the wasted effort I put into a boy who can't even love himself. But I can't. So my heart will always be torn in two.

p.s. I love you