Dear Seth,

Have you ever just looked up at the stars on a clear night and just stared and stared for no other reason than the beauty of it all? Well that was me last night. It was awesome. And here how it went.

Tonight I peered up at the heavens as usual. God it was beautifully breathtaking. The stars so bright looking like polished diamonds.

While standing in the middle of the darkened street. I saw something that I hadn't seen I'm the longest time, a star streaking across the night sky. Instead of making the usual wish while partaking in this rare event I wished for something greater; I prayed that somehow things said could be made right again. And that's when the tears welled up in my eyes and spilled down my cheeks. 

I believe, (I have to) to be able to make it through this, that things will be okay. Forget pride. I'll admit I'm wrong (even though I was justified and partially right) just to have you back in my life. I miss you so much. I'm sorry. And if hell is worse than this God help me.

p.s. I love you