Dear Seth,

Well I have an appointment to get checked out. God I'm so nervous. Seriously. I don't know why I'm saying this here but I am. Maybe you'll read it and realize that I'm not some kind of freak. For the past couple of days I have been doing pretty well, thankfully. But I'm scared about the negative what if's. My mom had the same issue. Cancer runs in our family. And there are so many things that I have yet to accomplish. I mean my bucket list is complete but................ the one selfish thing that I want for myself honestly and stupidly is just to hear your voice. God the pipe dreams.

Anyways I've embarrassed myself enough. I hope that you had a great day.

p.s. I love you.