Dear Seth,

I did something very very dangerous today. As maid of honor I was helping Kim with her wedding dress and stuff. We then went to the mall and I wanted to see what her wedding ring looked like. I then saw something that I'd love to wear one day. And I tried it on. God it was beautiful. It makes me want to seriously be married again and have relationship, someday; to grow old with someone until my last breath. I thought of you in that position Seth. I know I know but I'm still hoping and dreaming of that someday it will happen. That's all.

p.s. I love you