Dear Seth,
Tonight I am really sad. What went down yesterday is making me hurt. I am almost in tears all the time, even now. People actually hate me for what was done. Fucking why? I do not understand why they bullied and harassed people like that. And now they are doing it to me, sending pm's and kik. I cannot even read them yet.
I am not going to let them tear down anyone like that. Banning them was a good call. Thanks for coming in and rescuing me. But I will tell you that smoke is one of the main instagators. She is always putting down people for every little thing. And I am the one that has to hear others complain about her. So fucking what that she is messed up in all kinds of ways, we all are. But it does not give them free reign to do what they please. I do not feel that sorey for her. And what are you talking about respect for her? God, please tell me that you are not that guilable. She has pulled the wool over a lot of peoples eyes. Do not do this dude.
When and if you read this know that tonight that I am seriously considering leaving ltc. I love you so very much, Seth but I am tired of being this sad. This is not me. I have been there through a lot of crap, and I mean a lot. I have worked tirelessly, most days from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed, on that beautiful site of yours. Now I am just so mentally drained. I want to stay so badly but I will not if this continues, even though others need guidance so desperately and I love them like my own.
Hopefully I will get a great nights sleep after getting to bed at like 5 am and waking up at almost 8 this morning. Yeah that is how much of a peachy time I have had. Total bullshit. And maybe I will have a clearer head and a sense of what direction to take.
Goodnight and sweet dreams.
p.s. I love you
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