Dear Seth,

Tonight looking up at the eclipsed blood moon was amazing. Sadly it's a little hazy so I couldn't see the color, but I know it's there just the same.

I don't know if it will be one of the last I look at so I tried to make it as memorable as possible.

My health really sucks right now. Today my Kim got to see another side of what is going on. My left arm was a pale yellow color.

Right now I am so very scared. I don't want to be alone. I feel like crying but I know that won't accomplish anything. So I just deal when these episodes come.

Anyways you have been in chat all day long, so have I. And at times we were alone, just the two of us. I don't know if you were actually there or that chat is jacked and didn't log you out. Whatever the case may be I didn't and don't feel alone. I want to try and keep in there for as long as my eyes will permit me. So I am trying my best to talk to sweet Puffin about her chem mid terms and fluffies. LOL.

Also what you have seen in chat is the real me, right along with what I write to you every night these past two weeks. Those words have been the most honest I have been with myself. I hope that you don't mind.

Well I'm going back to chat with you and Puffin for now. I hope that you had an awesome day and that I didn't bug you too much with that stuff from earlier.

Goodnight and hope you have the sweetest of dreams.

p.s. I love you