Dear Seth,

Tha gaol agam ort.

Yah I do too. Very much so.

I see that you're listening to you dark and depressing music right now. It hurts to know that you might be in so much pain. Please just let me help you in some way Seth. I've tried reaching out but I don't know what else to do other than keep writing to you as I do here and on your website.

And please don't shut down on my again like you did. Look I know that you're going through shit but did you know that it's also hurting me in the process? It took almost 5 months to freaking email you again and bawl you out for that crap.

Damn it Hayward I think that you know I hate flying but if I have to I WILL get on a plane and fly to South Carolina just to yell at your ass and make you see the light of day. I freaking care about you get over it and start acting like the man I know you are not this corporeal thing I don't like one bit.

But even though I am saying all this I want you to know that I really do love you so very much. You have broke me out of my shell, out of the heart break that could have killed me if I had let it. So you know what? I am going to fight for you even if it ruins me. You are my life now and without you I am nothing. And that's the truth.

I hope that you have a great night and sweet dreams Seth. And please take care of yourself. I hate worrying like this so much.

p.s. I love you