Dear Seth,

Ugh this really blows. I'm feeling really yucky, so I don't know if I'll be on ltc to help with anything. I'm going to the doctors and see what's wrong. I know part of it but I don't want to say it here. And to be honest I'm scared as hell.

But whatever happens know that I love you Seth Hayward so very much, and I always have. I've tried to write you some of the most beautiful letters that I can so that one day you can look up on them and know that someone out there in the world cared for you so.

Just once in my life I wish I could hear your voice. 

Good night and sweet dreams Seth.

p.s. I love you so much