Dear Seth,

God that last post is really um hurting me bad. And I'm drunk out of my mind just to try and forget but it's not helping one bit. It's just making me remember more. It's like everything is being thrown back in my face. Dude this just really sucks for me tonight. Bad. I mean to the point that I'm crying in the middle of the street because people are bringing it up on ltc. And it's like why? Why rub salt into the wounds? Right?

Maybe the reason that I'm still keeping this blog going is because maybe one day it will all come around. I don't know but what ever.

Hell maybe they see what I won't admit again on there, that I'm still in love with you. You darn smart cookies you :P. Well it's true and I always will. If love were simple I would have given my heart to a lot of men by now. But it's not. It's the most complex feelings a person will ever feel in his or her lifetime. And now I truly know what love is all about. I really do.

Anyways I hope you had a great day. Sweet dreams, if you shall go to bed before I.

p.s. I love you