Dear Seth,

This is the only place that I can really let myself go. God freaking damn it. What I said on that facebook post is I really don't know. He's a sweet guy but......... you're the only one that will EVER have my heart. I just had to say something to direct their attention somewhere else. But I know that you know. God how could you not?

Damn it Hayward. This just fucking sucks right now. I'm closer than I'll ever be but shit I just don't know. Hell I don't think that I'm making much sense because I've had waaaay too much to drink. Hell that's all there is to do right now. It's raining. I'm in Mt. Pleasant. It's fucking a wooded area. I'm not about to get coyotes after me. Dude know I know why you are how you are a little bit. Damn. Anyways. I'll try to stop those idiotic posts, for now ;)

p.s. I love you