I feel like I'm lying to myself. I'm still in love with you. He is just a distraction. Something to ease my aching heart. He's sweet and kind, though I'm sure there is a lot more too him than that.

This is just so damn well messed up.

Well I hope that you're having a great night and have sweet dreams. Maybe I'll get to see you on my trip and at least get to say goodbye to the man that will always have my heart. I'll be there Saturday to start that process.

Good night.

p.s. I love you