Ugh ok I'm not going to break. I am not going to fucking do it. But I fucking miss talking or better yet emailing you. I'm sick and fucking tired of seeing you in my dreams Seth. Get the fuck out of my head. I'm trying to move on. I am. But I can't. What the fuck are you doing to me? Why? It's obvious that you are messed up but I still love you so much. Damn it to hell.

p.s. I love you