Dear Seth,

Maybe the doctors finally got it right this time. I'm praying so. It's taken so much out of me and I don't know how much more strength I have left. Again I had to go to the hospital this morning because now I'm throwing up coffee ground bile and blood too. They gave me a bunch of meds to take seeing if it will go away. They say it's an intestinal thing that's viral. Which really sucks because there is nothing to do other than alleviate the pain.

I told Kim about my blog and gave her the address in case something does happen to where I'm no longer able to do anything and to give it to you. I do this blog to show you that no matter what I love you so very much and how much of an impact you really do have on me.

Well I hope that you're having a great day and don't forget to smile either. I just wish there was a chance that one day that I can prove that you are deserving of me. Because I'm trying to do the same for you too. I don't know why I can't give up loving you. If it was easy it wouldn't be called love. And I have loved you for now a year in a half, since the day I found out who you were. But it wasn't because of that though. It's because you seem to care, to have a heart to listen to me and my ravings. That's what did it. And that's even before I knew what you looked like. I loved you then like I love you now and forever but way much more.

Now to get some much need sleep. Good night and sweet dreams to me.

p.s. I love you