Dear Seth,

Well now I know a little more of why I'm so tired and sick. I have a very high white blood count. But the doctors can't find why. I ended up having to go to the hospital again, because I was also throwing up blood. I'm so damn fucking scared right now. I need you so much. I can't go home like this. If an attack like this happened on the bus ride home it would be bad. Now that you know would you meet me? It's not a game. I'm not looking to win. I just need you. Please.

p.s. I love you