Dear Seth,

Well today I went to the doctors. And tonight lose the pride (hey I have it too). I fucking need you. Please. Just say anything. I have my friends but what I need is you. Any word of encouragement. I am not going to let this define me at all. Trust me I am stronger than that. But tonight I sort of pity myself and the only thing that would make it a fraction of a bit better is hearing from you. I'm sorry. For everything Seth. When I wrote that letter I was full of hurt. I still mean those things I said to you but maybe I should have just bit my tongue.

p.s. I love you