Dear Seth,

The afternoon was a little better. Actually it was fantabulous. I watched this one video of a guy that had gotten his wisdom teeth out and it was so funny. I literally had tears streaming down my face. Never have I laughed so hard in my life. LOL laughing now btw. And for those few minutes it made me forget about what happened last night. I'm still a little scared though. I don't know if you ever read my posts or this but every second that I get I will tell you that I love you so very much Seth.

It's a blessing and a curse what I feel for you. I didn't want this one damn bit. Hurt and mostly broken you were there like a light at the end of the tunnel. My hero. And I will seriously always love you for that. For making me smile, and laugh, and feel giddy at all those smiles send by email.

God you're 27 dude, I'm 32. I really didn't want this. But it's now a reality for me. I don't even know if we really have anything in common besides you being a boy and me a girl, or that we both like coke and coffee, or that you call yourself different ( like me ), or that we both like snow, or that I still like cartoons and you comics. I hope that we're not that different. Please tell me we aren't.

So I really do hope that you have a great night. If I was there in Chas. I know what I'd be doing right now. Best time of the month actually. Looking at the moon just as the stars come out during twilight. That's what I'd be looking at tonight. That and listening to the cicadas while drinking an iced coffee with a shot of hazelnut. Oh the best memory :)

Please take care. Good night.

p.s. I love you