Dear Seth,

I hope you're out there reading this. Please have a heart and let me know that you're alive? Because if not I'll be forced to call you and that right there, just the thought, scares the shit of out me. I love you and can't let you disappear like a puff of smoke. You some how wormed your way into my life and my heart, body and soul now belong to you.

Today I let all the anger and resentment that my ex husband put on me go. It's such a relief to be able to do that without yelling at him. To tell him that I forgive him but will never forget. I'm smiling because I was able to stand up to my abuser and say what I did without feeling so damn fucking scared.

Tonight I finally can rest easy knowing that at least that part of my life is over for good and that it will never haunt me. But I hope to dream of you once again. I did last night as well but it was foggy and couldn't focus my brain to remember it, sadly.

Please take care of yourself Seth. You are the best thing that has happened to my life in a very long while and I don't want to ever lose you like that. Sleep tight and dream those beautiful dreams I know that are in you.

p.s. I love you