Mr. Hayward I need you more tonight that I ever have. I don't know how in the hell you do it. How do you disassociate yourself from this? It's all coming at me at once. And this one time I need someone, YOU, to tell me that it will all be ok. And tonight I need you bad. I mean really bad. No not like that (hehe) ;) Please just say something to me, anything at all. I'm begging. I just want to scream so bad right now. Please call, text, email something.

p.s. I love you