Last night was the worst hell that I've gone through, secondly to loosing Marc. I finally texted Seth. The whole way home I was in shock. I was so damn nervous I had dry heaves. I even freaking cried. Hell I'm tearing up now. I didn't get to sleep till somewhere around 2 am. Not from waiting for a text from him, but from the shock of what I just done. I know he'll probably never call me or text. People like me never are that lucky. But I am happy that I did it. I pray for peace, though it would be nice to hear his voice.